Tuesday, July 31, 2012

DepressOverflow

Sometimes somewhere somehow. Depressfulness feeling has been overflowing throughout my every single parts of my moving body. Not sure if its work, or stress of work, or reallly get pissed of work or ' what the hell man, it's monday again'?

After working for just a few days of OT. Realised i missed out so much. so much until i felt boundaries between peepaws. Where i feel distanced inner-ly. Not sure if this only happens everytime during a transition in nest shifting. Or my brain is really so fucked up that i felt like suiciding by eating my computer right in front me. Not sure if its enough to kill me.

I wanna get used to what im living in right now like how i used to be in my poly time. Where adapting is so important, if  not how are we gonna live this fked up life right. Hope in time i could adapt more than people ever imagined because in a few more months. Part time degree is kicking in and i can no longer figured how many computer should i eat to stay normal and to maintain this awesomeness.

Or everything of this happened because i have not enought sleep last night? CHEEEHH then this post is redundant thanks for reading and god bless you for supporting my blog till now! wheeee :)

-marcus-

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Whentwoegofriends rehtohcaerofllef

Sometimes in life. Things happen. No matter how many degree it turned, it all depends on how big the changes are over the adaptfulness in us. If you could adapt on it, well that's certainly a good breakthough for you. but if you're unable. Too bad. Your gonna have your most depressed period.

Everyone of us and us were so great enjoying the peakest moment in our teenage life. Well one action, I cannot say its right or wrong- just the feeling of doing it. I did it. Everything began to change. From the happiness into awkwardness and into desperate-ness i could say.

Well, ofcos something happened in me. To be honest, at the beginning, i could adapt 0% of how changes infront of my eyes. When something is just not right whenever i tot of that. When there are so much dilemmas and so much jelly in the mind. When you know you are wrong but you're just following your heart.

After some disgratefullness, after what had happened last month. After some dying moment in me. I had finally figured out by only caring the right stuffs. Everything seems to be going into a positive way. Well, the only way to stay happy and contented is to think of everything are not yours, you came empty-handed and everything u achieved is not a permanent success but a temporary gift.

ps: we're just too special to not stay as _ _ _ _ _ _ or _ _ _ _ _ _