Supposed to be on 12/12/12 =0.0833333

A simple date with someone special on a special date. It’s a monthsary on 12/12/12. The first month has been really great for both. And yeah, we only remember the bad things, so sort of covered up into a not so awesome month for both.

BUT after yesterday. Le piano is too gooood. To have a letter prepared and a beautiful gift! Hmm guesss that the thing I needed most after all this while. Loving it darn much! :/

A little of updates, lifes been good with the surrounding and people around, getting much more adaptful! But I guess, good times will always comes to the end, my school time gonna starts in a month time. Not sure how long should I take to adapt this time round.

 PS:/

Sometimes in life, we all do things so flawlessly. The more we do that, the better we gets. So flawlessly routined. But when only one mistake, one mistake would have really enough. Just enough to hurt you deep to the throat. :/

-Moi e'st Marcus-

A post than a beer.

It's time. to have a post more than a beer :)

Been long. again. and it's good to be back here. sitting in front of le computer and starting to write some thoughts, doesn't really have much in brain but just free time. Busy day busy having fun and busy of plans. ofcos busy of slacking around. Things has been changing quite fast at a very slow and stable pace, everyone starting to get adaptable, Much more of a standard routine to suit one's lifestyle in surviving the weekdays.

Ofcos, craving for the weekends is the thing that we thought about at the weekdays. Working suck, It never has been good, but I'm sure we are good, in adapting.
The lost fun rough kids has now started to change into somewho 'Man'. Plan has never been any more rougher or expected or surprisingly good times in life right now. The fun of being a kid will never be back and the fun of being someone in transition would be really priceless and it's gonna be one hell of the best period of life. Yes until the day before i starts my school in Jan. Well, who gives a shit, we are champion in having fun anyway :)

Remember my last post of this dusty blogspot, this is the second part of it. 'Have faith'.
In this 3 months time, i guess we kinda establish a officially newly formed 'double'
Well to be exact,tried the first time with a super romatic way but kinda failed the because le piano expectation le too high. and yeah really did nailed the 2nd time. although not a very perfect and elaborated answer was given but to be positive, we have to be adaptable to optimistic, so. yeah we're kinda official now. with le piano. Uhh, in term of relationship, is still pending-to keep the suspends and fun going ;)

The best part of the life in transition. IS from moi birthday till vous birthday. The end of a chapter of the life.
Hope you had a great one. Piano :)

-Moi est' Marcus-

Something

Because both of us are gonna get awesome no matter how bad a situation could be. Everything will be fine at the end, if it's not fine, then its not the end. You have my words :) Please have faith.

Right now, until i grasp the adequate confidence. I will chase until your mine! :)
because hurting you by giving blank promises is the last thing i will do 

imy- piano xD

DepressOverflow

Sometimes somewhere somehow. Depressfulness feeling has been overflowing throughout my every single parts of my moving body. Not sure if its work, or stress of work, or reallly get pissed of work or ' what the hell man, it's monday again'?

After working for just a few days of OT. Realised i missed out so much. so much until i felt boundaries between peepaws. Where i feel distanced inner-ly. Not sure if this only happens everytime during a transition in nest shifting. Or my brain is really so fucked up that i felt like suiciding by eating my computer right in front me. Not sure if its enough to kill me.

I wanna get used to what im living in right now like how i used to be in my poly time. Where adapting is so important, if  not how are we gonna live this fked up life right. Hope in time i could adapt more than people ever imagined because in a few more months. Part time degree is kicking in and i can no longer figured how many computer should i eat to stay normal and to maintain this awesomeness.

Or everything of this happened because i have not enought sleep last night? CHEEEHH then this post is redundant thanks for reading and god bless you for supporting my blog till now! wheeee :)

-marcus-

Whentwoegofriends rehtohcaerofllef

Sometimes in life. Things happen. No matter how many degree it turned, it all depends on how big the changes are over the adaptfulness in us. If you could adapt on it, well that's certainly a good breakthough for you. but if you're unable. Too bad. Your gonna have your most depressed period.

Everyone of us and us were so great enjoying the peakest moment in our teenage life. Well one action, I cannot say its right or wrong- just the feeling of doing it. I did it. Everything began to change. From the happiness into awkwardness and into desperate-ness i could say.

Well, ofcos something happened in me. To be honest, at the beginning, i could adapt 0% of how changes infront of my eyes. When something is just not right whenever i tot of that. When there are so much dilemmas and so much jelly in the mind. When you know you are wrong but you're just following your heart.

After some disgratefullness, after what had happened last month. After some dying moment in me. I had finally figured out by only caring the right stuffs. Everything seems to be going into a positive way. Well, the only way to stay happy and contented is to think of everything are not yours, you came empty-handed and everything u achieved is not a permanent success but a temporary gift.

ps: we're just too special to not stay as _ _ _ _ _ _ or _ _ _ _ _ _

42.195km Sundown2012

Heh. Look at the title and look back here. NAILED IT ! HAHAH. Well on the 26May.2012. Few madafking potential runners aka 'imdamnproudofyouguys' runner simply nailed sundown2012 despite first running time this far but also completed it with a superb timing. Im just gonna share the experience of running sundown2012. So those that's not interested in running shall stop reading and start busying your own stufF!! hehee

So. It all started with. 5 4 3 2 1 BOMB. Run. So much thanks to kaesee and koon for the company in the 1st 21km for the pacing at first. Running that 21km is the furthest i had ever trained with kaesee in NTU where we used to train there twice a wk sometimes :/ . After 21km is the OHM. Where kaesee and koon dumped me by the road and look forward, and that's where i felt that my limit has reached. I started walking fast to try not to lose their presence in ECP that moment.

Well while walking after 21km, i dono how to motivate myself to continue except keep complaning how pain is my leg an hell yeah i regret joining sundown- nearly curse kaesee for letting me to join an suicide mission. After walking/jogging hell for another 7km. At 28km Overtook by alot of Uncle and Aunty. The U-turn point in ECP.

Then it started raining. Heavily for real. The strong wind and the blasting water drops is opposing to my direction. Hmmm, then i started to ponder for awhile while consuming the energy gel they gave us in the U-turn point. So many quote has gone through my mind including ' let stop the race and go home now' but one quote. "Why walk when you can run." The quote fking boosted me. It's like Popeye finally found his tiny bits spinach in a huge vegetable farm. :x

Then me no wait anymore and run like a BOSS overtaking people is like drinking water. Running at that pace under the rain with the coldness and the uncomfortable water-drops attack.  is really something new. All the way till I cross the finishing line with 4.51.03 hours. Hmm, to think of it, mayb it’s the rain that helps to boost. ;)

-Marcus-

PS:Gratz to the first timers in completing the race and sorry if I ever be-little you guys as I always did! Mayb next run under the sun? ;)

pU dekcuF sI gnikroW

To update abit. Finally I have got a job in Nanotechnology as an assistant engineer. Right after my 21st birthday. This is the 4th company I have been interviewed and the 1st company that offers me a job.

To compare with the rest of my friends, they are in a very future-ful company compared to mine. Ofcos, I’m envy if were to compare on our job. I hv been trying to be contented whenever there are some comparisons to be discussed. This is gonna be permanent, ofcos im strong enough for this ;)
Working here is not something that is huge as I have ever expected an imagined when I was a kid. Working is a stupid routine that moves on. But in this stupid routine, we all shall learn some tiny bits that will helps in our future life maybe? Wish part time were’nt a regretful decision.

Every now and then, Im just looking forward on weekends and holidays. I see myself lacked in enthusiasm and hyperne I did have when I were a student. Convo is just next week. Hope everything in this 3 years ends excitedly by everyone.
Im out

The 21st Old Kid

So it has come to this. The 21st birthday. I remember when I was a kid. 21st Bday is something one does not simply skip. A day I tot i would spent with my family and asking all the bunch of friends of mine to celebrate with me and capturing the scene where my parents hand over me a golden key as a recognition I have grown into an adult.

Alas. And DIS-ALAS. Me this year birthday no celebrate in Msia. Me in Singapore having one bunch of fking toooo good friends. Giving a surprise chalet chipping out from their pocket money for one SOHAI ME.
Them planned so well. Them make me emo and trolled I. I no happy and them happy cause them wan me no happy before the real surprise party. But me no not happy, just white lies and wan to make they happy.

So, let me start the summarised story. Went to chompchomp with moumou,feizai,diamzai, cutezai,lenglui, bozai,aizai to treat for moumou and feizai to repay what they have done in Malacca. After that treat, moumou saw a cakeshop and asked to buy a tiramisu cake for my 21st Bday. Just like dat. That's how my 21st are gonna be. So that's the emo part they had present me. Including the sarcasm of bozai and moumou is infinity saddening.THEY PRESUME BUT IM FINE.

Moving on! Went back to angmokio for pool and didnt catch the last train. Slacked in kopitiam with bozai, aizai and moumou with ke-pangseh-an of pikaball. Beer and the wait of the sunrise. Double-sad. Yes and they presume!

That evening when was awake, guaizai pretend to not wake me up and act so casually as if its not my bday. He don't even treat me a PANMEE! FUQQQ. MOVING ON.

Pikaball and Aizai appeared at the door and brought me and  bluffed me all the way from my home without blindfolded this time to enter the chalet to meet Bozai. Saying Bozai is bathing and will meet with the rest for pub-nite! Saying lenglui and the rest will not appear.

Finally something goes wrong. A fking chalet has been entered by me after them. At that moment when your level of happiness has gone too high in negative value, ONE SURPRISE turned it the other way round. Just like multiplying by another negative value.

They bought the present, booked the chalet planned the 'schedule', invited the people, prepare the food and cakes and a not-so-cake-CAKE. Me wan repay but dno how wan repay so take one Captain America to let them have one big fat smilee :)

To those who think they deserve a big reward upon planning and executing successfully, please tonight,sleep early. I will be waiting at your dream to kiss your cheek BIG TIME! :)

-Marcus- The 21st Old Kid.

P/s: Having a truthful friend. Is better than having a 365Tenga. True Story. Wish I is ONE too :) 

       Those nights were the best.

De-spirational

I have been experiencing super awesome consecutive day for so long now. Until today, a day i spent the whole 24 hours in this area without talking, just facing a laptop that doesn't has network. How bad could it be, but of cos, there're a lot of movies to watch in here. Imagining a person surviving this is simple but actually doing it, is quite tough especially the boringness will turn into the emotional inside you.

Everything you never tot of all these days will starts appearing in your mind. 

So, as for now. I'm craving. for something. A home with friends. Living alone is dead. Sometimes imagining what our home would be, really increase my desire on it. Well friends, As for now. EMBRACE yourself, One good home8-like is coming. Just right after everyone settle down :)

My foot's injured due to recklessly-barefooting of football match 2days ago. Regardless of walking-cripple-like, I still miss playing football. Haha. More to come please! This time im gonna suit up my leg.

It brings back memories tho. 

Another thing, finally I have got an offer. After running through 4 companies, finally a job has been offered. Still hasn't accepted the offer. Bad. Im no good. Especially I'm compared to my awesome friends in the previous interviews. I envy and also at the same time proud of them. Maybe I shall learn the goods in them. Being too cocky and playful doesn't seems help. 

This little post, is by far the longest time taken to complete. Too de-spirational. 

-Marcus-

FYP.Phuket.Ipoh.Malacca.Interviews

Warning: This will be a fking long post. If you're busy on something else, recommended not to view it at this time.

Again. Been busy for this few periods. Starting point from FYP till now. Never really expect my FYP would be the worst after all this sems. Yes. I'm a happy go lucky guy. 'So what' is the only phrase I have been using. Not really sure I'm good in acting tough or I'm really that tough. Believed that "You reap what you sow" all along. Which gives me more disappointment when a friend of my told me my grades. Guess this time, I really don't care much bout it. Fully healed after all the slackiness I did this few days.

Phuket. A _____ trip. Too many adjectives can be insert into this short sentence. Been planning out it from the last 6 months I guess with a few friends. Bringing all along 21 awesome kids. I admit, at the start of the planning stage, we have been worrying. Nevermind that, due some minor carelessness drags time and we're able to pull through. Trust me, that was the most 'down' period in my life. And also one of the delightful moment in my life. Thanks to whoever that pat on my shoulder and say everything will be fine although it doesn't help. but still thanks :) HMmm. Imagine the whole accommodation for 21 person was a scam. Now stop, and it's not a scam. Delightfulness pumps up from my feet to my brain.

Haih. Due to some lack of carefulness made this trip has too much lows. I see a few are trying quite hard putting everything together which is quite impossible when there are 21 of us. Sometimes, you wanna be happy, but you just cant stop worrying. And deep down that moment, you know the best, It cant be retrieved and yet you never stop trying. Because it's all about the content in that particular item. To my friend, sorry to remind you again. Phuket has it. Let it be ;)

Some feedbacks on the video. Too long and too draggy. Heh, it's okay to have such different point of views feedback. But it's okay. I think I did a great job taking video, touring and having fun. A 22 minutes video. Is not easy to view. But I believe people that are inside the video can feel the OHM atleast! hehe. So to say, the video is for the 21 of us because i'm afraid of skipping anymore awesome moments although it's draggggish! :/

Went to Malacca and Ipoh for a eat-until-your-belly-burst-trip. No worries, it's a chillax trip. Spent alot of time in the car. Thanks to HIM and HER. Nothing much, just featuring Gua Tempuring climax and also bad stuff do happen after one peak. Heh. To all the victims included me, 'Atleast we can still see our phone', Quoted by a fren. Plan quite screwed when we're shortlisted for interviews during the stay in Ipoh. Heh. It's alright, right after my wallet dried up.

After having one great bunch of friends made me realize, we can really be this close together. Undergoing all high and low. Climax and trivial moments together. Wonder what will us be in few months or few years to come. Everyone will go on separate ways near to each other but might not be this close anymore. Guess, it's a part of growing up aight?

-Marcus-

Not a single name has been carved in this whole post. Because. I wanna remember them back when I view back on this post a couple years later. Sorry to sound so dramatic. Btw I'm not crying :)!

Phuket Grad Trip Video Production 2012

Just Grad trip video. So much things i wanna update not sure where to start. Guess i will just leave it for tmrw or next time mayb! Right now. Enjoy the video bahhh Although bit-damn long =))

Marcus

Happy Valentines day '12

I still remember the last valentines. Not that day ofcourse, just that period. Im as busy as always. Not really sure why Feb is a busy month for me? Maybe I'm still in a CNY mood. HAHHA although already past damn long. Okay please, my sense of holidays is too long to be described here.

Back to the point. I remembered the last period of valentines day. A friend of mine went to NZ pursuing academic. I made a video for him. Just to wish him a "one road follow wind" and happy valentines days for him and the girl friend. Guess what, no big deal. they are still as good as blended together and Im sure they will make it till the end!

Well enough of good stories from both of them, yesterday is my first time giving flowers to a female and also celebrating valentines day with bunch of singles yet potentially couple-able. :)

I never tot it would be that great. Quite happy to listened to sincere compliments from the other points of view on their first impressions towards me. Im glad. to have you guys :/

Hm.we kinda made a deal. If we're still single on the upcoming valentines, we would celebrate together again :) Who knows? I might be the one left out next year? hahaha.

-Marcus-

Driving force starts and ends

Been Ot-ing for FYP for quite a period. Last week finally kills my driving force, no chiongster this week for FYP. Life's been good and tired. for the past few wks. May the money disappeared slower just right before we enjoy the peak. Yesterday was the peak. Tomorrow will be the official day and now i'm here still doing my fyp.

Sometimes it's not easy to advise as thing we would want them to be. Simply just because we don't know,not stupid nor dumb, but just simply fail to understand this special situation. We're having a really really special relationship here :)

Marcus

fraid i would fall for you :[

distanza lunga relazione

I envy friends that are able to pull through a long distance relationship and admire them at the same time. No matter how dickish they act sometimes, they still got my respect. Mayb that's the one thing that they clearly owned me.

I heard a friend of mine saying, " We're still together just because of the treasured past memories" 只是因為過去的回憶.

And yeah, he's one of them i admire too :)

-CheeHang-

A moment of silence

A year one boy, Christopher, in my school.passed away abruptly with a serious heart condition. He is a fren's fren of mine. A good one. I do not know him. I dono how big influence he made to the others. But yesterday i witnessed, alot of friends cried for him. A few are sobbing all the way with alcohol. Then when one of fren told me, he talked to him just last Thursday, standing there joking around, physically and mentally in a good condition. It's awkward right? |Life is so fragile| You never know who will be the next. Sorry to sound so bastard aka please appreciate your life under every breath u're taking now.

*Let us have 1 minute silence for him*

Friends that has been crying for too long, stay strong!

Christopher,May you rest in peace.

On the verge

Ever have the feeling of breaking down half way, at the worst timing where everyone around you did not expect it to happen in you.

The best moment is not someone approach you and asked what happened.

Its the moment when someone actually approach you and convince you that him/her understand how you feel, even if not a single senses were understood by that person. And that's the most awesome feeling because you felt your problems are recognized and your actions are not absurd.

Just at that brief moment, you're back to awesome-state again. Thanks to that particular person with just a few words. :)

-marcus-

Deep down

Deep down in everyone. There's a secret. A truth that always, stay unspoken. It's fine. Don lose your secrets before losing it yourself. Guess that will enhance the curiousity.To keep searching for the truth. :)